It was this time last year that I decided to commit to Austin. A few months after I made that decision, we bought a house. At the moment, it looks like we will be here for the foreseeable future. I still long to move closer to my family, but for now, we are here. Instead of feeling frustrated and suffocated by this fact, I am focusing on being content.
It is easy to slip into the habit of thinking, "If only X, then I will be happy." When I step back and look at my life, it is clear that I have little to complain about and much to be thankful for. I have a husband who makes me laugh out loud (at him, at myself, at life) on a regular basis, a curious little boy who has brought more joy to my life than I could have imagined, a front yard where I can grow food, a back yard filled with trees that backs up to a bicycle trail, an extended family who supports us without being overbearing, friends who encourage me to pursue my dreams, and more love than any one person deserves.
Would I like to be more centrally located in Austin? Sure. Do I miss living in the same town as my family? Certainly. Could there be a more perfect balance between my home life and my career (or lack there of)? Of course. But in the big picture, I am happy.
I have to acknowledge that contentment comes naturally to me this time of year in Texas, as my happiness here seems to be largely dependent on the weather. The beautiful mild days of late winter and early spring make it easy to see our family staying put. I am writing this post now, so when the heat of the summer descends upon us I can look back and remember that it is just a season (both literally and figuratively), and it will pass.
Perspective is a powerful thing.