Thursday, August 21, 2014

HP and the edamame

Here's a scene from our dinner on Tuesday night:
Me: Don't put that edamame in your nose, HP.

HP smiles as his pulls out the piece he was shoving up there.

Neil walks back to the table after filling up the plate with seconds. HP recognizes the opportunity to see what Dad will say about shoving food into his nostrils, looks straight at him, and puts the piece back in his nose.

Neil: We don't put food in our nose, HP. Please take it out.

HP proceeds to push the edamame with his finger, making it disappear into the depths of his nose.

Neil and I exchange a look.

Me: Did he really just do what I think he did?

Neil: I think so...
We took him over to the couch, brought out the flashlight, and tried to find the offending bean. It was in there alright, the edge just visible when he breathed.

After consulting Dr. Google, we determined that the bean likely wouldn't work itself out on its own, could fester, cause an infection, and/or be aspirated. Several unsuccessful attempts to retrieve it later, we called the after hours number for our doctor and got him an appointment at a pedi clinic that stayed opened late.

HP seemed utterly unconcerned about the whole process. On the way to the doctor he was chatting away in the backseat about all of the vehicles and construction equipment he saw. In between excavator sightings, he would say, "Going to the doctor. Get the edamame out of your nose."

The doctor's visit itself was fine. The actual retrieval was traumatic for HP as we had to physically restrain him while the nurse shone a light up his nose and the doctor worked to get the edamame out. I am sure it didn't help matters that it was past his bedtime. As soon as she pulled it out he said, "Want to hold it!" I think we're going to pass on that one, kid.

He was back to his cheery self for the ride home.

The next day our peditrician's office called to see how he was doing and to make sure everything got taken care of after hours. Turns out our regular doctor has a trick she recommends: Cover the unaffected nostril, put your mouth over the child's and blow into it to force the offending particle out. Wish we would've known that sooner, as we likely could have saved ourselves a late night trip to the doctor. Next time.

Of course we hope HP has learned his lesson and there won't be a next time, though I am not counting on it since this conversation happened on the way home:
HP: Stick it in your ear? Said as he holds up an object ready for experimentation.

Neil: Let's not stick things into any of our orifices. That hasn't worked out so well for you tonight...

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Pregnancy: The third trimester

Approximately 29 weeks.
As of a couple of weeks ago, I am officially in the third trimester. Seeing as how I have taken no pictures and written no updates for this pregnancy, it's probably about time to share how it's going.

In general, this pregnancy feels more relaxed than my first one. I am much less in my head about all the details, which I consider to be a good thing. I am too busy living our life to obsess about exactly how far along I am or reading every pregnancy book, blog, and forum in sight. The whole experience has been low-key, in a good way.

But about those details I said I wasn't obsessing over...

Fatigue. With HP I do not remember being as tired as I am with this pregnancy. I have been napping more often than I did with him. I napped almost every day from weeks six to twenty. Even now I am resting at least one or two days a week. Without the extra sleep, I feel drained.

People say that I am more tired because I am chasing a toddler around, but I don't think that's it. Actually, I think that the whole "chasing a toddler around" line is one of those things people say because everyone says it, not because it's necessarily true. HP is a low-key kid. Yes, we get out every morning and do something around town, but it's not strenuous. We usually go to the park or the splash pad and I sit on the bench and chat with other moms while he does his thing. I think this pregnancy is just different.

Sleep. I'm entering the phase where nighttime sleep is hard to come by. The wake-ups to use the bathroom don't bother me since I wake up for that even when I am not pregnant (though usually not multiple times a night). It's the inability to find a comfortable position that is compromising the quality of my sleep. I am a stomach sleeper, which is challenging (read: nearly impossible) in the third trimester. Sleeping on my side hurts my right hip and I hate back sleeping. So far the hip pain hasn't been too extreme, but I remember how intense it was with HP near the end--not looking forward to that. I am also having trouble turning my brain off in the middle of the night, even when I am exhausted. All of that combined has meant a lot of poor quality, interrupted sleep at night, hence the need to nap more during the day.

Exercise. I have had to slow down much sooner this pregnancy than I did with HP. I don't go to the gym or have regular workouts, but I am active every day since we walk and bike everywhere. Lately even biking short distances leaves me exhausted and my legs feeling sore. The heat of the summer isn't helping things, but it is more than that. With HP, I biked long distances right up to the end, and he was born at the end of June. Though then I wasn't biking with another child, and having an almost thirty pound toddler on your handlebars is no joke. I am doing my best to listen to my body and not overdo it, but we still need to get around.

Movement. Feeling the baby move is the highlight of this whole experience. This babe is not exceptionally active, but I love when I am able to stop and notice all of his/her kicks and jabs. The whole process is surreal. It's easy for me to forget that there is a real, live, person inside of my body, until said person decides to remind me.

Mental preparation. I am not prepared to go into labor. At all. I need to do some work on that front, if for no other reason than it is a waste of my energy to dread something that just has to happen. As for the rapidly approaching reality that we will have another child in the house, I am excited. Nervous for the lack of sleep, but excited to meet this baby and have our family together on the outside. Three months or less.

Monday, August 18, 2014

Books lately

For the past month or so I have been on a mediocre book streak. Nothing terrible (though I did absolutely hate The Goldfinch--which represents a week of my reading life I will never get back), but at the end of every book I felt... unsatisfied. 

Just when I was getting discouraged, my hold for Brigid Schulte's Overwhelmed: Work, Love, and Play When No One Has the Time became available. I desperately needed a dose of good writing and critical thinking, and it delivered. It is easily the best non-fiction book I have read all year. The quality of the research and writing reminds me of Susan Cain's Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World that Won't Stop Talking, which I have glowed about before.  Neil's going to read it next so we can discuss it both in general, and which aspects we would like to apply to our lives, marriage, and family.

In addition to whatever books I pick up on my own, I am a member of two book clubs--one that meets locally and one that meets virtually.

The local book club just finished reading The People in the Trees by Hanya Yanagihara and I am still not sure what I think about it. I would not say I highly recommend it, as I found the writing tedious at times and the plot dragged in the middle. That said, it did make me think and pushed me out of my comfort zone, which are marks of a good book. The novel dealt with themes of child sexual abuse, the role of science in society--particularly it's potentially destructive nature in a cross-cultural context, and moral relativism. This New York Times review a fellow book clubber found may have said it best:
Provocative and bleak, “The People in the Trees” might leave readers conflicted. It is exhaustively inventive and almost defiant in its refusal to offer redemption or solace — but that is arguably one of its virtues. This is perhaps less a novel to love than to admire for its sheer audacity.
I love that book club challenges me to read books like The People in the Trees that I may not have otherwise picked up. I always leave our meetings feeling differently about the book then when I walked in, which I take to be a good sign. Sometimes I end up liking the book more, as was the case with Elizabeth Gilbert's The Signature of All Things, and other time I like it less, which happened with Maria Semple's Where'd You Go Bernadette? Either way, I come away with a deeper and more nuanced understanding of the book.

Other good books from the summer that I would recommend:

Tell the Wolves I'm Home by Carol Rifka Brunt
Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell 
The Lowland by Jhumpa Lahiri

And as always, please let me know if you are reading something excellent so I can pick it up, too.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Getting away

At the end of last month I took a five day trip to New Jersey to be in a high school friend's wedding. It was the second time I have been away from HP for more than a day, the first being a three-day trip to this same friend's engagement party last summer in New York.

I thought it would feel more momentous to be gone for five days, but it felt ... well, normal. Like it was no big deal. I take that to be a good sign.

I love all of the time I get to spend with HP, but I also love my time alone to rejuvenate. Most of the time, I find those moments of solitude in the down times of our day or on a weekend morning when HP and Neil go to the park without me, but I have to admit, it was refreshing to have multiple days in a row where I was not responsible for another human. This trip felt particularly luxurious as I got to spend two nights in a hotel room by myself (!).

Both times I've taken a multiple-day trip away from HP people have asked, "Do you just miss him so much?" And of course I miss him. But mostly it just feels like I am living my life and I know he is living his. Being a parent does not define who I am as an individual.

It was easy to enjoy my trip because I knew HP and Neil were having a good time together. Besides, they went camping with friends while I was gone, so I am fairly certain they were having as much fun as I was.

When I arrived home after a long day of travel, HP was taking his bath. Did he jump up to hug me upon my arrival? Tell me how much he missed me? Cry out with joy? Nope. He said, "Takin' a bath. Washcloth (points to the washcloth). Mama wearing stripes." and then proceeded to name the colors of each of the cups lined up on the edge of the bath. And you know what? It made me happy that my return was such a non-event for him. I take it as a sign that he is a well-loved, well-adjusted little boy.

I appreciated the break from our regular routine and enjoyed my time away, but I was glad to come back home to my little family when it was over. I think that is the perfect way to feel.

Monday, August 11, 2014

The end of the nap?

Most weeks, I love the rhythm of our life. It's slow, it's simple, and we've all been in a good place. But last week was rough. I mentally struggled to maintain my calm, easygoing demeanor. If I had to pick a theme for the week, it would have been: Parenting is hard.

Things that have made the week especially challenging:
  • HP decided to stop napping. He's doing fine with it; I am not.
  • Neil is busy at work and coming home later than usual. Normally he is at the house well before dinner time, which allows me to cook in peace while they hang out. So relaxing. This week, we've been lucky if he makes it home for dinner.
  • The Texas summer, which has been so mild and pleasant up until now, has begun in earnest. I always think I won't let the heat bother me, but it inevitably does.
Our days used to have five distinct phases: morning hang out time (reading books, eating breakfast, independent playtime for HP, chores for me), morning activity (park, swimming, museum, playdate, etc.), nap time (a blissful 2.5-3 hours!), afternoon hang out time (more books and independent play), and after dinner hangout time (usually Neil and HP playing in his room). Now nap time has been replaced with "rest time", is much shorter, and the whole day feels out of whack.

The new schedule suits HP just fine. He is on edge by the end of the night, but holds it together surprisingly well considering the lack of daytime sleep. It's not until we wash his hair and brush his teeth that the meltdowns start. Bonus: he is in bed by 6:30 or 6:45 on no-nap days and sleeps later in the mornings. So really, he's getting the same amount of sleep as before; he's just consolidating it at night instead of spreading it out to a nap. But it's still an adjustment.

After mentally fighting the change, I am trying to embrace the new normal. I am not completely convinced that naps are a thing of the past. A few weeks ago it seemed he was dropping his nap, then just as suddenly he started napping every day again. He is cutting his top two-year molars, so I am crossing my fingers that is the reason for the change. But at this point, it feels like a long shot and that I need to let go, admit that trying to force a nap on him is more about me than it is about him, and follow his lead.

I am a huge believer in young children needing a lot of sleep. I think there are far too many children who are not getting enough rest, either during the day or at night. I fully intended my child to be napping well into his fourth year of life. So of course, I would have the child who decides to drop his nap at age two. Parenting is nothing if not a crash course in humility.

It's a new week, and I am already planning strategies to make it better than the last. So far I've come up with:
  • Using the morning time to accomplish tasks that I normally would have done during his nap time.
  • Letting go of the expectation that I will have a long chunk in the afternoon to myself and accept that "rest time" is only an hour. Easier said than done.
  • Keeping the house straightened. When the house is a mess, everything feels more overwhelming and frustrating.
We'll see how it goes.

Update: HP is currently on a three-day streak of great naps, including taking one in the middle of me writing this post about him dropping his nap. Children are unpredictable.